xXIts Just meXx

2011-06-06T21:54:00.002+08:00

Once again i was met with another mishap.
I always wonder why should it be always me. I am just a young person who haven even spend half of my life yet and i was force to face with such reality. Haha perhaps thats my life.

But deep down in my heart, i know God is the one who save me again and again without fail.

God conveyed to someone that he had took my place to die on the cross for me when that person is worrying whether will i even come back to life. God indeed is such a comforting God.

Huan nan jian zhen qing.
Now i truely understands the meaning of this phrase.
Words are cheap but action is the one thing that really counts.

Thank you for proving to me that you are someone worth treasuring.

Though i was quite disappointed with someone whom i deem as important in my life but fact prove me wrong perhaps?
Or am i overthinking again?

2011-05-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

AHA! Attitude. Humour. Action.

2011-05-21T00:23:00.004+08:00

If only everlast really exist. Time reveals humanity's true self. Time awakens human's guillability
Hope and faith perhaps is all fantasy. People come and go. Be numb for good...

2011-04-14T17:52:00.009+08:00

Experiences shape perceptions. Fear masked humans which brings about
absence of simplicity and authenticity of human beings. "Who am i" is such a simple statement but who really knows the answer of it? Are the roles we play in life really us? Perhaps we can only genuinely understand the reason for our existance and the kind of person we will want to be by our deathbed. The tragedy is not that life is short, but that we often see only in hindsight what really matters.

"To live is to die & to die is to live". -Death is not the biggest fear in life. What is most fearful is the fear to take the risk to be alive.

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2011-03-17T19:38:00.001+08:00

http://www.dressmyphone.blogspot.com/

2011-02-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

Demoralized...

2011-02-27T07:49:00.002+08:00

Mentally and physically stressed out. I wish i can take life easily and not having to carry so much burdens which is weighing me down. She is dead. Dont have to miss her at all.

2011-02-26T01:21:00.001+08:00

Who really knows?!

2011-02-21T23:47:00.001+08:00

Poor thing for she was all alone... Karma...

2011-02-04T00:00:00.004+08:00

Is she really asking for too much by simply hoping to be understood?? She was emotionally drained knowing she was fighting this partnership battle alone... It feels sucky to b the one trying to solve the problem yet the other person dont see the way she see the need to solve the existing problems or even in a bad shape to solve it consistently... She knows that it takes two hands to clap, yet shes naively struggle to solve the problem all by herself... That is all folks...

2011-01-23T12:48:00.001+08:00

All she wanted was to be understood...

2011-01-23T01:38:00.000+08:00

Perhaps its all just FANTASY... Its just not meant to be...

2011-01-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

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2011-01-13T16:01:00.002+08:00

Perhaps i was in this alone right from the start. The unspoken solitary battle. Maybe its time for the protection machanism to take over.

2011-01-13T03:05:00.000+08:00

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2010-12-22T21:46:00.003+08:00

3 more days before the arrival of the upcoming anticipated Xmas season... This will be the time when kids will be so excited for xmas gifts due to the legacy existence of Santa Clause being a generous giver to kids who are well behave...

Were you taught to believe Santa Clause is real since young???

I believe people who grow up in this kind of environment will lead a much simple life compare to the rest who dont... Why is this so??? Perhaps cause they were being taught that life is so beautiful and was such a fantasy and it shapes their personality to be more positive outlook towards "LIFE". To term it in something uglier, it will be called naive. But i do wish i could be one of them... But can life ever be simple with the interception of this cruel reality???

I would want to believe Santa Clause is REAL if i can choose!!

My Santa Clause.... Where have you been??

2010-12-21T17:35:00.000+08:00

2010-12-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

2010-12-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

Truth or lie is such a clique word..be'LIE've...See it?

2010-12-04T14:43:00.000+08:00

2010-11-19T17:20:00.001+08:00

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2010-11-04T16:14:00.002+08:00

[00:02.04]橘色气球-江映蓉
[00:05.54]
[00:06.61]制作：伊倪儿
[00:09.68]
[00:16.98]说我值得被捧着被疼
[00:27.75]而我兴奋只伤得深刻
[00:38.89]
[00:39.38]爱交换了彼此的灵魂
[00:50.43]愿永远能成为你的如此快乐
[01:02.58]
[01:04.84]一个橘色气球
[01:07.70]带着你的笑容
[01:10.48]找到属于我的天空
[01:15.98]飘呀飘的忘我
[01:18.66]牵着你的右手
[01:21.39]我不怕会飞过了头
[01:26.11]
[01:27.08]一颗橘色气球
[01:29.80]随着你而跳动
[01:32.54]为了一个梦而执着
[01:37.97]远路有多颠簸
[01:40.82]不管风雨捉弄
[01:43.58]绑着你和我
[01:48.25]永远都不降落
[01:53.39]
[02:07.11]说这世界少了些绝对
[02:18.73]像我愿意为爱情冒险
[02:27.73]
[02:29.74]若不小心刺破了完美
[02:40.81]那也许是一种试探不危险
[02:53.77]
[02:54.47]一颗橘色气球
[02:58.05]带着你的笑容
[03:00.85]找到属于我的天空
[03:06.62]飘呀飘的忘我
[03:09.08]牵着你的右手
[03:11.73]我不会怕会飞过了头
[03:16.81]
[03:17.48]一颗橘色气球
[03:20.12]随着你而跳动
[03:22.84]为了一个梦而执着
[03:28.43]远路有多颠簸
[03:31.07]不管风雨捉弄
[03:33.93]绑着你和我
[03:38.37]永远都不降落

2010-10-25T02:41:00.001+08:00

Disgusted.

2010-10-10T04:56:00.006+08:00

When i look through all my past neoprints as i am having serious insomnia, some of the past memories flashed through my mind and i ask myself what could have been different if clock can ever turn back. Some people who once walk alongside with me throughout my life was legacy while some people still stays. But many things had been so different as nothing really stays forever in reality unless you are living in a fairy tale. We all have to learn to take life easy. The founder of "the game of life" boardgame definately understand this philosophy.

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift and thats why it is called the present.

2010-10-08T15:58:00.010+08:00

It is like the process of flying a kite. It takes skill to know when to let go of the thread and when to hold on to the thread. A vulnerable string that is being attached to the kite and may break anytime in the air when the air pressure increase.

歌手：楊丞琳

左邊

總是　忍不住寂寞掉下　眼淚
你才會給安慰　擔心　短暫的晴天
隨時　都可能　被陰霾收回

等待　有機會最壞也最　甜美
我樂觀卻疲憊　因為　太怕失去你
所以連快樂裡　都裝滿傷悲

＊你　不曾發覺　你總是用右手
　牽著我　但是心卻跳動　在左邊
　你和我之間　的遙遠
　永遠隔著親切　愛少的可憐

　伸出　右手　想陪著你　向前走
　感受　你愛我的心跳在左邊
　那麼深深　愛你的我
　相信你會了解　(你一定　看的見)＊

總在　埋怨過你的冷漠　之後
又急著說抱歉　彷彿　向疏遠的你
乞求　一點體貼　都是我不對

結果　有可能最美也最　可悲
我做好了準備　也許　太自由的你
心裡面那個家　誰也不能回

REPEAT＊

我一直相信　總有一天
你會用左手　牽著我走向明天
未來很遙遠　卻會實現
心在同一邊　就能夠　聽見
你說的　那句　我愛你

REPEAT＊

*I wish someone can see through my lies when i try to act strong. All i want is to be understood.

2010-09-10T05:11:00.000+08:00

2010-08-31T03:38:00.003+08:00

I have a simple dream yet it seems the hardest to fulfil when we are living in this complicating world. Perhaps by taking away this useless brain will be good. Sounds as ridiculous as it seems, but it is as if it brings me nothing but burden. I guess without it, the propensity of me having a longer life is so much higher as i will be simpler and happier. I GUESS??!

2010-08-29T00:19:00.003+08:00

2010-08-12T03:01:00.000+08:00

2010-08-12T02:44:00.008+08:00

*Girl, its time to let go and move on....

Be strong you can do it! Rainbow is awaiting... Jia Jia YOU!!!!

=)

2010-08-11T05:23:00.001+08:00

2010-07-30T02:22:00.000+08:00

2010-07-29T05:30:00.009+08:00

My wishlist...

I wish i am not living in self denial.
I wish i can have the courage to face the fact.
I wish i can shut my brain and emotions.
I wish i have the strength to carry on.
I wish i can just be simpler.
I wish i can be easily contented.
I wish happiness is in my genes.
And indeed i really wish.

And the wishlist goes on and on and on...

2010-07-27T02:49:00.002+08:00

Lyric (English)
Someone requested a song on the radio
It played I Remember I Have Loved
In the rear-view mirror, I didn't say much
I watch you getting off the car, going up the floor
I hold tight the stray lace
Your face flashes before me
I have some inklings
At this moment, I hold back my questions

I remember I have loved
I can't get back those happiness
Scare that my emotions would be out control
Scare that I would cry a river
Scare to force you to do things

I remember I have loved and understood
The turning point in your feelings
Tears wet through the paper crane
Love grays the colors
And my heart feels as if it is being rip apart
It can't be easily healed anymore

You said you were only friends
I went along with a heavy heart
Your eyes are evading me
At this moment
What else have you not said
You lower your head to put on some nail polish
Counting the cherry flowers
The picture fills with tenderness
But I'm counting in my head
The number of times you have given me the silent treatment

I remember I have loved
I can't get back those happiness
Scare that my emotions would be out control
Scare that I would cry a river
Scare to force you to do things

I remember I have hated and gone mad
I started talking to myself
Tears wet through the paper crane
Love grays the colors
And my heart felt as if it was being rip apart

I remember I have loved
I can't get back those happiness
Scare that my emotions would be out control
Scare that I would cry a river
Scare to force you to do things
It can't be easily healed anymore

2010-07-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

2010-07-10T12:52:00.002+08:00

Any ties in relation to human beings are as vulnerable and volatile. Who is really worth? Perhaps we will never have an answer to it.

2010-07-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

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2010-05-18T23:28:00.005+08:00

Interestingly, life depicts an ordinary photograph.

Like a 2 sided coin, this can be seen as either a skewed photo or a piece of art. Its like how we choose to see life, an obstacle may be seen as a challenge(application of creativity in an art) or a tombstone(skewed). A photo dosnt speak yet convey a meaningful message. Thats how beautiful photographs can be.

2010-05-17T09:17:00.000+08:00

Numb me please anybody.

2010-05-16T14:36:00.000+08:00

2010-05-14T17:15:00.006+08:00

Why some people just cant understand that thinking too far ahead is harmful for the soul. Especially if its pertaining to any relationships as in a relationship which probably work out in the absence of logic and senses. Thus in conclusion, there are never right and wrong as its all about perceptions of individuals that differs. There are no right and wrong emotions but only right and wrong actions after your perception. Is emotions necessary afterall?? Perhaps i am just sick of the game.

2010-05-08T01:08:00.004+08:00

作詞：小路
作曲：鄭勝元

最後一抹的微笑在轉身之後
我閉上眼哭了
僅存的一點點驕傲華麗的外表終於丟掉
很徬徨很孤單是寂寞或悲慘
一個人該怎麼辦

像是刺蝟般防範偽裝得勇敢
不輕易讓你看穿
我以為可以很坦然面對分開時不覺得傷感
然而將燈關上一片無聲黑暗
心痛得大聲呼喊

我想我沒那麼堅強每個女孩其實一樣
渴望著愛情的好渴望被擁抱卻都害怕愛讓人受傷
承認我沒那麼堅強不過是一而再的逞強
小心將情緒收藏比傻瓜還傻
刺蝟的堅強全都是假象…
哭吧

海派甜心插曲 - 愛不單行(羅志祥)歌名 -
愛不單行找不到人說
心裡的寂寞找不到人懂
怕黑的折磨找不到命中注定
在一起的那个人很多人都像我
一個人過生活愛
只有簡單筆畫卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍卻還是沒能將幸福留下
愛是不可数的嗎
為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行
別害怕用不完身邊
氾濫的自由
開始怕孤單
是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人
為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到
愛情那個枷鎖
愛只有簡單筆劃
卻比想像複雜
恨安定愛變化我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍卻還是沒能
將幸福留下
愛是不可数的嗎為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行
別害怕我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行
別害怕我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行
相信它來源

2010-05-04T23:40:00.004+08:00

A distant that outlined the awkward synergy. It all turn into a remote refuge. Would it still be salvageable? As often, nothing is forever perhaps.

2010-04-25T02:31:00.005+08:00

I am sick of this contridicting world.
Perhaps all i need is a break and to take a step back on my pace.
No time to risk, waste and hurt myself.
Be harden for it is a survival skill for this cruel life.

"Silence is golden"

2010-04-20T02:20:00.004+08:00

Saying sorry turns out not to be the hardest thing to do in life. The hardest thing is perhaps having the guts to live in expectancy.

2010-04-07T23:00:00.001+08:00

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2010-03-25T20:49:00.011+08:00

It’s good to have plans for the future, but it might turn out to be a disaster if it’s too much to the extreme. For a moment, I realised I had been so ignorance as to forget about myself. I am so focused in my vision, but yet, its bringing me nowhere and I somehow always ended up overwhelmed by disappointments. Perhaps the reason being, my physical body is just like an empty shell with magnetic forces controlled by my extremist scientist brain which were programmed to follow dead instructions. It somehow resulted in me being too objective driven.
After a reflective solitary stroll then I realise that I had been such a fool all this while. All the while, I had been neglecting the most important part of the whole vision that is myself. Without myself, the healthy and happy veron, how can the dream be fulfilled? I realised I had forgotten the word called Sabbath, to give myself a break so as for me to replenish my motivation in the long run and therefore, at the end of the day all I get is a weak willed heart and a passive attitude towards everything around me.
Dreams may be great and commendable. It’s indeed a necessity if we yearn for success in life as a goal, yet again as a human being, there is a need for everything to be balanced. From young, we are taught to be structured, to always come out with a structure before filling in the contents for eg.projects or even to have a goal in order for us to have a direction to work towardsin life. But it somehow contradicts. Perhaps there are exceptions. It is always more important to take care of the inside(content) first before constructing the details(structure) on the outside. Without happiness and welfare in our physical shell, successes are just broken pieces, like crumbs of bread without consumer. (Probably this entry only applies to perfectionist)

2010-03-23T01:41:00.004+08:00

Ever ask yourself how does the existence of full stop come about? Why it is a necessity to put a full stop to complete any sentences? Perhaps it just tell us that nothing stays. Be it good or bad, it will someday be over when the chapter is completed. This explains why beautiful moments won’t stay for long, and disastrous circumstances will too come to past someday. It’s just a matter of how we as human being react to any situation. Thus, in conclusion, be happy and enjoy every moment of your life be it good or bad because it will come to an end someday.

!!

2010-03-18T16:09:00.007+08:00

Main Entry: zom·bie
1 usually zombi a : the supernatural power that according to voodoo belief may enter into and reanimate a dead body b : a will-less and speechless human in the West Indies capable only of automatic movement who is held to have died and been supernaturally reanimated
2 a : a person held to resemble the so-called walking dead; especially : automaton b : a person markedly strange in appearance or behavior
3 : a mixed drink made of several kinds of rum, liqueur, and fruit juice

Sounds familiar? Yes, i feel like a zombie being caged in automatic routines(a lifeless soul) who are just floating around like anybody else who is trying to make a living by struggling to work and only to look forward to 'my weekends' every single day. Kinda sick and tired of this kind of life, i miss my life! Yes my life! But veron, you gotta hang on there til the time is right! To suffer before enjoyment perhaps? Please make time fly!

2010-03-16T23:57:00.002+08:00

A real failure is one who is defeated by himself or herself. Am i one of them?? As far as i know, i strongly think so. I wish i can be more optimistic towards myself and my life. Well, perhaps some fairytale or success stories are meant to be detached from my world. Dreams are dreams. Reality is reality. Face it!

2010-03-07T01:35:00.014+08:00

Just what is life?
Perhaps it will just remain as a myth and no one have the right answer to it.
I am very pragmatic and pessimistic when it comes to life and reality.
I believe in destiny and I totally don’t believe we can change our destiny or that life is fair.
Seriously it’s all bullshit to me.
Babies can be born with serious illness.
Different people are born to be in different family and environment. How were they being classified? They deserve it due to their sins in their previous life? As far as I learnt in Christianity, there is no such thing as reborn.
So I can just say count themselves unlucky.

To conclude everything, life is never fair...

There are two incidents whereby I could just lose my life in a flash.
Yes, I won't dare to say I am totally not affected.
Memories are stitch within my head and eventually evolved into phobias.
Those traumatic moments might just be there forever.
I did complained silently and dwelled into self pity at times.
But I learn it the hard way that to be contented is the highest attainment a mere being can reach as life is so fragile as far as i have witnessed.
To simplify it, we might just disappear from this earth within seconds, so be contented and most importantly be HAPPY!

Most people bring regret to their deathbeds.
And I believe if they can turn back the time, they will be willing to change their way of living, their attitude towards what life is all about.
We might question, "Why do those if you know you will regret?" But the cruelty fact is humans are created with emotions.
And most of the time, we are led by emotions unknowingly since it seems like the right way as it feels right at that point of time.
We have the ability to counteract our logical debates towards our so call right decision.
But the problem is who knows what lies ahead and what is really right?

Perfectionist love to think far ahead, and when we couldn't control what is to come or even what has come, we panic and eventually lost hope in life and even in ourselves. It corrodes our image of perfect life, and corrupts our innocent childlike attitude towards life and reality or even self esteem.
To sum it up, perfectionists often start earlier and fall easier too.

Perhaps some people might describe it as maturity as we are the ones who think far and look far instead of wasting our life off.
But is it really true?
Cause at the end of the day, relationship is all that really matters since we can bring nothing tangible back to heaven.
And our contentment in life is another important factor that determines our health in the long run.

It indeed contradicts.

2010-02-17T23:59:00.005+08:00

Life is indeed so tiring. I just wish to hide for now because it all seems too far away. A hideout place where not much people can find. I often wish i can be a person who just live a day by a day, who are slightly more short-sighted.

Then I can take off my facet.
Ignore everything that might or is going to happen.
Be happy and contented every moment because life is short and unpredictable by living life like everyday is my last day on earth.

But after a conversation, I realised, I am much happier and contented right now compare to the past. The past shall be the past and I don’t wish to hang on to it cause I was once deeply scared. I am glad my wings are extending. Thank you for those who had never failed to be there for me, to patiently pick me up throughout the rocky journey. You guys know who you are. =)

2010-02-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

雨愛歌詞
主唱：杨丞琳
作词/Wonderful
作曲/金大洲

窗外的天气
就像是你多变的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣
看不清我也不想看清
离开你我安静的抽离
不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的 Rainie Love

窗外的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续　
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

冷冷的空气很窒息
我无法呼吸一万颗
雨滴的距离很彻底
让爱消失无息

离开你我安静的抽离
不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的 Rainie Love

窗外的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续　
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

匿名的好友歌詞
修正版(轉自作詞人李焯雄博客)

杜松混合茉莉的风回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
一起活在这城市迷宫提起你名字
心还跳动却没重逢
只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎麼说让彼此选择但思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美梦落空回忆裏被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是甚麼让彼此选择又不仅是尊重

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手
却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

2010-01-15T00:09:00.004+08:00

Perfectionism is killing me. I always envy people who are able to treat life as a game. Who are simple minded. Who can live a day by a day. Because of the high expectations goal that I have to live up to for my own justification, I fell again and again just because I had been living life in consciousness and I am so fearful of letting go any moment in any area. I know that I am taking everything too seriously, to the extend that I always have to pretend that I am strong to encourage myself to hang on so as to hide my vulnerability of being able to be hurt so easily. I wish its not too late to resign to my pathetic life. I wish life can just be simpler.

2010-01-01T19:25:00.000+08:00

Ice Cream (Talk To Me) - DNR

Lyrics:

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favorite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

2009-12-05T22:48:00.005+08:00

I am overwhelmed by fear and stress. She is hospitalised and probably diagnose with mild stroke (not yet confirm but symptoms fit). It's heart wrenching. Wednesday is my math and stats paper and also the trip. But now, I am lost and facing this all alone. I hope she will get well. Though sometimes i feel that she restrict me too much but I know its all for my own good. I couldn’t imagine my life when she is gone. I dare not imagine when no one is there to control me and if there is a barrier of communication with her. At times I complain, but i really cannot bear to lost her. I realised i have been neglecting them all this while and its abit too late. Life is just this short to waste. I have learnt it the hard way. Don’t follow my footstep.

2009-10-30T17:15:00.005+08:00

At times I wish that I can be transparent. Figuratively and cognitively living in a world of my own independently, using fixative rationality to piece up the distorted facts in my mind to convince the stubborn one. Crap.

2009-10-28T02:12:00.003+08:00

Beware and be mindful. Human mind is a very dangerous & powerful tool for having the capability to manipulate and manifest actions and behaviors base on perspective and judgment.

2009-10-21T03:27:00.002+08:00

Com on' its time for the engine to get started...down down down!!!

2009-09-27T18:21:00.003+08:00

Hang on there girl. I am sure You can do it. Its all about time management! =)

2009-09-21T23:38:00.003+08:00

Its all coming back to me. Bash me back to reality. lols.

2009-09-19T00:28:00.003+08:00

Perhaps perhaps...

2009-09-05T01:09:00.007+08:00

It has been so long since I last have time to really ponder about my life. Life has been so hectic till sometimes I forgot what it is like to have a life. Much has happened, yet all I can do is just watch it flashed past my life like a lightning. I’m convinced that life is fragile. It has been tough fighting this battle all this while. But veron ain's going to put a stop to it without finishing the race. Every challenges is like a mountain of obstacle, its never easy but until you did it, that is when you can scream at the top of your voice "I have did it!” So hang on girl. The storm will be over soon.

2009-07-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

There are one thing in life i dread the most. Conscious fear. Life is full of drama and dillema. Where have my ideal black and white world gone to? Have wasted my past 21 years searching for something which dosnt and will never exist. Thats foolish of me isnt it?

2009-07-26T16:00:00.005+08:00

I feel suffocated, mentally tired. Have broken down. I need a breather. I need an output or perhaps simply just get my life back! Argh! Hang on there. Sad to say this is just the beginning.

2009-07-19T01:37:00.002+08:00

Happenings in life is often predictable yet fragile and not within our means to control. Complicating.

2009-07-12T02:20:00.004+08:00

For one to look at things in a different light gauging from the norm is an explicit art. It takes more than a mere photographer to be able to capture the most unglamorous and depressing moments and yet deciphers it the way no one else could.

2009-06-12T00:50:00.002+08:00

This Is My Now -Jordin Sparks

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide,
Was I gonna play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I've settled for less now I'm ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I'm living in the moment
I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.

2009-05-22T23:04:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I felt like laughing at myself. What ridicule. So unlike me yet I fell. Even I myself couldn’t believe it. Am I really Veron? Even im doubting. Shit life. hahaha. Please guys don’t ask me anything about this post. Will appreciate if you just mock at my failure and get on with your own life.-Referring to Everyone who saw this post- thank you. Veron aint giving in to whatever comes her way. Come on. Stand up straight and be confident as Veron will forever be the unique Veron! Yea that’s the way. Lol.

2009-05-18T01:14:00.002+08:00

Fight or flight? Emotions are like tornados. lol

2009-05-14T23:03:00.003+08:00

Its coming back. Believe in yourself girl. Falling down momentarily is common. Life is all about falling and courage to stand up even stronger. Everyone goes through that. But what can be different between you and the others is the action and attitude towards it. It will be over soon. Really soon. =)

2009-04-28T02:27:00.006+08:00

Bits and pieces of our past makes up our memories. Similar circumstances, yet, its amazing how human beings can view it so differently towards their unpleasant past memories. It seems hillarious cause it totally contradicts one another. To be proactive or reactive its in our own hands. Judge it yourself. Compare both lyrics attached and imagine the song writer's feeling towards i would say almost similar situation.

- Leona Lewis Lyrics

- Britney Spears Lyrics

2009-04-28T01:51:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2FyBa4Wmex8&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9WwKKKx-zA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7B8Op3SyPfo&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTjI6gc2YYk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5SACanad9Lw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BWn_SmfOAG0&feature=related

2009-04-18T19:07:00.000+08:00

Nicole Scherzinger - I'LL BE YOUR LOVE
Lyrics by Yoshiki from X Japan

I'll be your love
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
There's a time
You feel like you are lost
Fell the night will never end
Through the daybreak
It's hard to hold on
But there is tomorrow
Brings you to your senses
As the sun will make it's way
You'll make it there
To the place where reality and dreams
And love will be together
I'll keep the light from fading
If the clouds blind your way
And the wind sways your faith
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
Let me see you smile
Don't you cry
Over the past
Some days might be gray
And dreary
Not easy to leave
To leave it behind'
Til the rain stops in silence
I'll be there to hold your heart
I'll be with you'
Til you find the reason for love
We take it for granted
We'll keep the time from fading'
Cuz the world is here to stay
Your hope is deeper than pain
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
If you would believe
Believe in the world
A vision of love
And the strength inside your heart
You'll find a way
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone

2009-04-16T17:37:00.008+08:00

郭美美放了爱

你指向远方
爱情很晴朗
笑问不如
今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光
钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动
是泪无法储藏
把美梦锁上
以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光在空中翱翔
还得乔装安份靠在你的肩膀
放了爱
为了爱
这不是我
该怎么生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢
我笑得开朗
你越温柔
我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你
我感觉更勉强
别人的幸福
何必要模仿
心不在何苦
留躯壳在身旁
加满自由
我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场
放了爱
为了爱
这不是我
该怎么生活
放了爱

会明白
有种拥有
叫做放手
我的心为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错
放了爱
为了爱
这不是我
想要的生活
放了爱
你会明白
有种拥有
叫做放手
放了爱

郭美美- 许愿树

梦破了
沉默便不敢哭
伤痛了拥抱胜过安抚
你最会解读
我内心的日记簿
错一次就像看一本书
而用心的从泪水提炼礼物
找到对的地图
太过倔强
虽然有苦说不出
但就是讨厌认输
跑上了山坡尽头断了路
勇敢就是我的许愿树
我用梦想
在天空中飘浮
海边的日出前都会有雾
勇敢就是我的许愿树
用眼光照亮
模了糊

每当我追求完美太顽固
是你化身我的许愿树
你给了我
无限量的呵护
每当你突发奇想要倾诉
让我化身你的许愿树
为你一起哼着
幸福

2009-04-03T04:08:00.004+08:00

Just some random old mv which is quite nice at least to me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAFgRbMKBSM&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWTJV7Ef3f0&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxgzXX8gZ7g&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fDrzMmZ_6Y0&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fmelodylovesongs%2Eblogspot%2Ecom%2F2008%2F10%2Fyu%2Dheng%2Dyi%2Dran%2Dshi%2Dpeng%2Dyou%2Dlyric%2Ehtml&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LBDFfxCPbxA&feature=related

In the past i had been consciously disregarding the natural pace of lifestages. Therefore i've got no one to blame other then myself when i fall again and again getting bruises all over.
It dosnt seem significant to a perfectionist the importance of it at all. Like when we often claim that we shouldn't judge a book by its cover. We shouldn't judge the importance of it by the perception we have of it too. Sounds contridicting yet a new revelation.
A simple analogy explains it all. Calling all non- musicians. Does it ever comes to your mind how much does the "rhythm" plays a part and contributed in a song?
Same goes to our life. Every small details of a little life has a unique infinite melody on its own. In conclusion, its time to take things slow.

For a moment i wish the time could stop for me. But yet again i know its jus a delusion cause time waits for no man. I am not an exception either. So for now i just got to be contented till i was being halt for another detour of my life. Sad to say, unsophistication doesnt exist in the world that we are living anymore.

2009-03-23T02:53:00.006+08:00

As expected, I had always believe that ignorance is a bliss. The attraction of simplicity never fails to mesmerize me every moment. Sounds so simple yet so fantasy.

There's a need to know how to be serious relating to life itself, yet its an art to know when and how to relax and go crazy.

Right now at this moment, its time to throw away the shoulder of burdens and enjoy the upcoming short break.

2009-03-13T19:40:00.006+08:00

The cruelty of life- The reality.

We will get to understand and see extraordinary opportunities only when we dare to take up the challenge and gamble our life out of logical arguments. Logic is dead but the life that we are living is alive. This explains why there are things and circumstances which logic couldnt explain let alone to act upon it.

Same goes to the way of life. How does the word Justice comes about logically? The way we do life is not logical yet we act upon the fact that we know what is the right thing and what is the wrong thing to do even without the need to think and its at the back of our head. How amazing. If logic can explain everything, this universe shouldnt even exist.

Keep our pace steady and slow and enjoy the breezy walk of life before its too late.

People often say we need to know when is the right time to do the right thing. But the thing is that at some point of our life the phrase "the right thing" is just not applicable. Is there such thing as right job? right parents? right spouse? right friend?

2009-03-10T20:14:00.002+08:00

Is this really what i want?

2009-03-05T01:02:00.004+08:00

Some random thoughts. Sometimes I ponder. Sometimes I wonder. Sometimes I think to myself human beings are indeed weird. Perhaps it is as complicating as how logics and emotions can exist at the same time even though its contradictory to one another.

2009-02-23T23:04:00.004+08:00

Come on girl, gotta zhen qi abit. Only a fool will thought of giving up so freaking easily so stop being such a loser. Its just a passing phrase to be of higher value in future. Learn to laugh it off.

2009-02-19T00:54:00.004+08:00

I felt like an idiot detouring around in a circular motion. Being true to others is easier then being true to oneself. Self denial is more destructive mentally then being excecuted physically. The saying goes, truth will set you free, now i understand it could mean literally too be it to ourself or to people around us. Bondages cripple us but facing to the reality with courage brought us forward. Story closure. No defeat but time to move on.=p

2009-02-18T01:03:00.003+08:00

Every story got to have an ending in order to be completed.

2009-02-17T01:14:00.005+08:00

My mind was in a whirlpool of hauntings and thoughts once again. Perhaps I had always chose to believe i was stronger but it seems i never fail to fall like nobody's business. Absurdity is me. But yes, I must and will be happy!=p

2009-01-27T05:09:00.006+08:00

Time flies when there are holidays. The feeling of being freed out of all awful, cruel and burdensome baggages is simply refreshing. Perhaps I had always imagined myself being an escapist. Lol. Banish me back to reality. Hold on there! =p

2009-01-24T14:47:00.004+08:00

楊丞琳 - 帶我走

歌詞:詞: 吳青峰曲: 吳青峰

每次我總一個人走

交叉路口

自己生活

這次你卻說帶我走

某個角落

就你和我

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑

像天空纏綿雨的洶湧

在你的身後

計算的步伐每個背影

每個場景都有

發過的夢

帶我走

到遙遠的以後

帶走我

一個人自轉的寂寞

帶我走

就算我的愛

你的自由

都將成為泡沫

我不怕

帶我走

每次我總獨自遠走

抱著緘默

不皺眉頭

這次你卻說一起走

彼此溫柔

從此以後

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑

像天空纏綿雨的洶湧

在你的身後

計算的步伐每個背影

每個場景都有

發過的夢

帶我走

到遙遠的以後

帶走我

一個人自轉的寂寞

帶我走

就算我的愛

你的自由

都將成為泡沫

我不怕

帶我走

白馬溜過

漆黑盡頭

潮汐襲來

浪花轉動

凝在海岸

結成了墨

薔薇朝向

草原氣球

郵差傳來

一地彩虹

刻在心中

拍打著脈搏

帶我走

到遙遠的以後

帶走我

一個人自轉的寂寞

帶我走

就算我的愛

你的自由

都將成為泡沫

我不怕

帶我走

就算我的愛

你的自由

都將成為泡沫

帶我走

2009-01-22T09:14:00.003+08:00

Reality is cruel. Dillema is everywhere. Even though in midst of deep shit circumstances, what is being done is invertible. Be courages! Winners dont quit & quitters dont win. Holidays are coming!! lol

2009-01-20T23:08:00.003+08:00

Com on. Its time to go slow. To be patience & give myself time. Unforeseen pressures dosn't do any good cause it affects us mentally.

2009-01-15T23:11:00.005+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming. Majority of the people around me is so looking forward to it, but somehow i wish this festive won't even come lol. The only possible things that i could be looking forward to this festive season is for the ang baos and holidays. Other then that I felt like running away from it. Such a loser i admit. lols.

2009-01-10T10:46:00.006+08:00

History repeats itself. It's an unsolvable issue. It was being dragged all along but nothing is ever solve. Perhaps its just a curse and avoidance is never the key. Life is not meant to be serious about. In this way, we will be able to face up to reality and live a happier life cause life is unpredictable.

2009-01-06T23:30:00.001+08:00

It's time to face the music.=)